It’s early in the morning and I’m sitting in the dark with Cub 4 resting on my chest receiving another breathing treatment. Whenever her asthma flare ups happen, it’s guaranteed to be a sleepless night for me. I’m up constantly listening to her breathe, trying to decide if it’s getting worse, wondering if we need to make a trip to the ER. It’s going to be a long, tiring day at school as a result.
For awhile, PB and I have talked about the idea of me coming home and leaving teaching to try to balance our crazy, busy lives a little better. Back in March, it was confirmed by God that it was time for me to be a stay-at-home mom (SAHM) again. We have been working on lots of transitional matters to make this possible. Last week, I made it “Facebook official” (as my friend, Erin, called it) that I would not be returning to work next year. Since then, I have been encouraged by so many colleagues and friends. I’ve done a lot of crying (like now) and any lingering thoughts about whether or not we were doing the right thing began to disappear. It’s annoying how sneaky the devil can be by making you second guess what God has planted in your heart.
This morning, I am so thankful for all who have let me know that I will be missed, or how I helped their children, or what a great decision we’ve made.
This morning, while listening to Cub 4 sing her way through her breathing treatment, I was able to encourage myself:
Yes. It’s time to come home so that I can take care of my sick cub (and nap) on days like today. Instead she will be going to the office with PB so that she continues to get breathing treatments every four hours.
Yes. It’s time to come home so that I don’t have to pump myself full of caffeine all day to be an alert and effective teacher.
Yes. It’s time to come home and make family a priority as we sit on pins and needles waiting to discover if Cub 1 will pass the seventh grade.
Yes. It’s time to come home when one of my paychecks goes right back out of the account for day care costs.
It’s just time!
This scripture is my daily verse for today and it’s so fitting:
Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing. (1 Thessalonians 5:11 NIV)
Encouragement from others and self makes life’s difficult decisions easier to maneuver through.
Encourage someone today!
Off and running!